We drive around all night and decide we need to find a Wal-mart because he has a gift card. Around two am, we find one and start out in search of two betas we can fight to the death. Finally, I find four pathetic fish and after selecting the most lively of the bunch (which is missing part of its fin and floating near the bottom of the bowl) I find an employee and ask her what kind of equipment I need.
“What do I need to bring this beta back to optimum health?” I ask, “we’re going to fight it.” She looks at me with a horrified expression and says, “I’m walking away now.” At this point, realizing his options for a solid fighting fish are slim, ––– decides to purchase his at an actually pet store, in hopes of giving it a chance against mine.
Over the next couple days, I try my best to take care of the beta, but despite my efforts, it tries to commit suicide. I scoop him out of his small bowl with a slotted kitchen spoon (having no net) and clean his water. I even add a few rocks for decoration. Despite my attempts to spruce up his environment, he continues his strike from eating. When I sprinkle a bit of food on the surface, he ignores me and stays glued to the wall of his bowl, even when I tap incessantly on the glass.
Realizing my chances of nursing the thing back to life in the tiny bowl are slim, I decide I must find him a new home. I purchase a new, much larger tank. I also get water conditioner and medicine hoping his skin will become more vibrant. The woman at Petco informs me that Betas don’t actually like small spaces, shattering all the things I previously believed to be true. At first, he doesn’t know what to think, but after a brief period of adjustment he begins swimming laps around the tank, doing cartwheels and backflips, and swimming up and down. He appears thrilled to have so much room to move.
I enjoy watching him for awhile. I call my mom to tell her about his new tank and new behavior. “Oh Angela…He was depressed! He’s so happy now,” my mom exclaims. It is so like my mother to personify the fish, but it’s probably true. Needless to say, he has never experienced so much space and takes full advantage of it. I also purchase some live blood worms, instantly deciding I’ve spent way too much money and effort on the miserable little fish. After he refuses the pebbles I offer him, I drop a few worms in his tank. The water turns a lovely shade of crimson and I watch as my beta races to the surface to snatch the worm. I decide I’ve raised a carnivorous monster partial to live bait.
After awhile, I begin to think the fish is entertaining me more than it should. When the beta starts eating I am thrilled and tell everyone that my fish is gobbling up “four pellets a feeding!” When he gets his new tank and begins swimming happily around the bowl I declare, “My fish started swimming!” Soon his color will return to normal and I’ll declare, “My fish is beautiful!” My fish has become my baby of sorts, giving me such amusement when he has each of his “firsts.”
I quickly lose interest in the beta realizing it is the most worthless form of entertainment ever and has a shitty return on investment. I silently wish for its demise, but continue to take wonderful care of it. I question my humanity. A few months later the beta is still going strong and I have planned a weekend excursion up north. I have no intention of bringing it along and come up with a wonderful plan to leave my clueless roommate from Korea in charge of it.
I promptly knock on her door and ask her if she will look after the thing for a few days. She nods in the clueless manner she normally does while I demonstrate how to dump a few pellets in the tank. She appears to have grasped the concept, so I leave for the weekend.
Upon return, I hope she has accidentally sped up the beta’s aging process. My hopes are instantly squandered as I enter the apartment and spot the beta hunkered in the corner of the it’s murky tank.
A week later my other roommate calls and regretfully informs me the beta has passed away. I smile and thank her. It’s the biggest reprieve I’ve experienced in months.
**No fish were hurt in this process.